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I'm a Geek ! haha.

The world has changed,everyone look like ignoring me..I felt so leftout seeing most of my bros & sis going into poly accpt me ! i felt so alone,so bored. soon i will be left behind still studying when they went into NS. The feeling of pain & loneliness couldn't be explain..

Whenever i saw couples,my heart started to sank..I'm so envy those couples hving fun tgt teasing each other,lying on their shoulder.. I could felt their happiness & comfort given to each other even just with a glance.. I hve tried my best to be the best of myself whenever wooing a girl whom i had fallen for but nv once was a success..why??? why ?? was i'm over caring? i donnoe wat to do.. I had lost my confident in myself whenever i fallen for a girl,i'm afriad tht the ending of it would be always the same.. After forth time of failure,i'm nw always tinking wat is wrong with myself. iszz i had over cared for her till she was afriad of me or was i over annoying whenever i sms or msn her? I tried my veri best alrdy,i gave out my care , my concern & love but inreturn i'm be ignored...

I'm so Afriad of the word love ! it's made me hve doubt over it,maybe my life shld be alonely. All the time,money & love i spent is totally useless.. It's like i had over showing it. I fear lonliness,i would rather die then being left alone.. I pain & lonliness is always hidden within me,nobody knw till they saw my blog.. All i need was someone love,care & concern,was tht too much ?

Going to sch made me for get those pain & lonliness for a moment but during the trip on the way back it started come back. Alot of thoughts run through my mind,making me emotional down.

From tht day on my expression was dead till the nxt day,it kept repeating in my life till someone came to save me from darkness..

I'm wishing upon the star,hoping somedays an angel would come down to save me from the darkness.Taking me to somewhere full of Happiness & Loves.. The darkness where my soul are in is horrifying,it's a metal torture.