my blog had been dead silent for a week ? haha.. hmm,past 1 week was busily going city hall for donnoe those success talk. As i had paid $500 to join in tht so call a career.. i'm so dam tired of those talk,i feel like just quit the job.. so boring & waste of time. I had been like forced down to the talk whenever i don want to go.I always uses crap excuses to say i'm busily & wouldn't beable to attend but in the end i went down cos when i crap with them they gives other excuse to make me go down.. hais.. dam sian. Family recently hving financial problem,my dad had been working for my uncle as a engineer supervisor,however my uncle company had moved to china as over there everything is cheaper.. So my dad currently so call jobless. My wei da de mama,went out to work,just to try to support abit of the household expenses so tht my dad don need to worry so much.. SO i had made up my mind to quit smoking to save up $$$,i wwouldn't b buying cig anymore.Unless fren gave me for free?? hahaha =X

arggg lazy to update hahaha.. hmm today when sch just for math & lifeskill test. the math test was like dam easy ! & somemore each qns worth 5mark,even the east qns too ! but lifeskill sux,m i hate lifeskill. it's like totally waste of time learning & studying lifeskill.. nth much le so cya ! =D

Hving fun with the new muti-web caming app with daphne & min hui.

haha i became a professional tuition runner liao.. today run tution again ! i hvn been going tuition for weeks.. Tis few weekend is dam bored didn't had anything plan or event.. bored ! haha.. I'm at Home rotting, gonna decompose soon if no one jio me out. lazy to type further more nth much happen.. Oh ya nearly forgotten ! HEY MIN HUI, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY =D 18 liao worr,can buy cig,go clubbling & many more =D

Ytd i did't go to tuitio again ! =DD went to woodland library for silent reading. It has been a few yr tht i hve nt been in the library reading novel.. After tht went over to town to look for vin, andy & bon,walking around looking for stuff to buy.. SG SALES CREATE MADNESS ! all the auntie like in the shopping centre like looking for gold sia.. For instant i do nt hve the shopping mood cos i don hve much thing i wanna buy,mostly are those brandy stuff.. I NEED TO WORK ! hahaha... around 11+ went to pub 33 with deshaun & co. for drinking session, tis time round was lesser ppl. drink till around 4:30am cai go home,i was freaking tired !. pass few days didn't had a good sleep.. wat am i thinking of ? wat troubling me ? =S hahaa,anw ytd night i reached home a straight away went to sleep ! hahaa.. I"M NOW IN THE MOOD FOR GYM !!!!!

hoho..singapore gt ppl kana h1n1 loh !! wooo, faster sch close down ! so i don need go sch,staying home online, play games hahaa.. Today went to sch, i brought my laptop to sch to play L4D & transfer it to other computer,so tht my classmate can play tgt ! However there's no power plug for me to charge my laptop ! fuck... In the end i hve to bring it to sch tmr again! omg it's dam heavy sia..

my parent don understand me a single bit ! They doesn't trust me anymore after caught me smoking, fuck _l_ they are nw like CID whenever i go the nxt day they will call my fren asking if i were at their home or wat.. WTF man i'm now 18 YR OLD ! I knw wat am i doing,plz fucking fuck off, stop tracing where i'm i nt ur criminal. I'm nt tht easily influence & learn bad okay !?! I hve my self control,i will knw where my limit ! THE AUNTIE OUT THERE PLZ FUCKING STOP BEING A SHOOTER,DON BE A BUSYBODY. CAREMORE OF UR OWN CHILDREN RATHER THAN ME ! I HATE FUCKER SHOOTER,SINCE U'R SO GOOD IN SHOOTING ,WHY DON U BE A BLOODY SNIPER ? hahaha.. finally tht all wat i want to say to those San Gu Liu Po aka Shooter.. !! xDDDD

My throat started to pain ! lols after eating ton of chocolate & chips,today the pain came hahhaa..I've like 1 yr+ hvn fall ill le ~ lols let me get ,my mc & pon sch ! sch is boring.. i want go poly visit my Bros & Sis ! giving them suprises.. =DD




After falling down for so many times,i realises tht there's no one in tis world could help me up but only myself..
Love does nt begin & end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is growing up...

=)

I'm a Geek ! haha.

The world has changed,everyone look like ignoring me..I felt so leftout seeing most of my bros & sis going into poly accpt me ! i felt so alone,so bored. soon i will be left behind still studying when they went into NS. The feeling of pain & loneliness couldn't be explain..

Whenever i saw couples,my heart started to sank..I'm so envy those couples hving fun tgt teasing each other,lying on their shoulder.. I could felt their happiness & comfort given to each other even just with a glance.. I hve tried my best to be the best of myself whenever wooing a girl whom i had fallen for but nv once was a success..why??? why ?? was i'm over caring? i donnoe wat to do.. I had lost my confident in myself whenever i fallen for a girl,i'm afriad tht the ending of it would be always the same.. After forth time of failure,i'm nw always tinking wat is wrong with myself. iszz i had over cared for her till she was afriad of me or was i over annoying whenever i sms or msn her? I tried my veri best alrdy,i gave out my care , my concern & love but inreturn i'm be ignored...

I'm so Afriad of the word love ! it's made me hve doubt over it,maybe my life shld be alonely. All the time,money & love i spent is totally useless.. It's like i had over showing it. I fear lonliness,i would rather die then being left alone.. I pain & lonliness is always hidden within me,nobody knw till they saw my blog.. All i need was someone love,care & concern,was tht too much ?

Going to sch made me for get those pain & lonliness for a moment but during the trip on the way back it started come back. Alot of thoughts run through my mind,making me emotional down.

From tht day on my expression was dead till the nxt day,it kept repeating in my life till someone came to save me from darkness..

I'm wishing upon the star,hoping somedays an angel would come down to save me from the darkness.Taking me to somewhere full of Happiness & Loves.. The darkness where my soul are in is horrifying,it's a metal torture.

today i'm a bad boy ! wohaha i pon lifeskill.. haha nth lifeskill sux & it's boring, the room is dam humid. everytime listen to teacher talk will fall asleep,nt tht her lesson is boring. It's the enviornment we r in is super hot ! Tmr is 5m ToTo draw,hope tht at least i win some money..hahaha(dreaming) went home rest then my cousin jio me to play bball,it hve been 1 yr since i touch bball,my shooting & aiming is dam lousy nw like a 1 yr old boy player lols.. play half way rain came to save me from disgracing myself.. ty rain! =D I'm nw smell dam nice cos i hvn bath yet ! hahahah can u smell it ? =P

didn't take much photo.

wat the hell is andy doing ?

ytd didn't went to tuition hahaha ! I'm a bad boy =X slack till around 4 20 went mrt to meet min hui(my sister) then went down over to town to meet alvin and co.. when we reach orchard min hui is nnt familiar with orchard and where the shopping centre are ! hahaa. so let the pro take the lead xD when to taka zara shop find alvin & co then wennt to starbuck annd slack.. awhile slacking we are waiting for joanne annd birthday girl MIRIAN ! so we bought a oreo cheesecake from starbuck and andy went around the shoppinng cenntre looking for candle. lucky a kind aunt from one of the shop gave it to him. when the birthday girl reaches we sing birthday song for her and let her blow the candle.Then min hui's fren came and whenn the night came,IT"S TIME FOR DRINKING SESSION hahaha... went to bugis pub 33 drink,luckily gt deshaun over there if nt i donnoe how to go ah. then meet dao deshaun fren,so coincidende priscilla birthday date also same as mirian.. So HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MIRIAN & PRISCILLA. I got drunk after a few cup,i'm a poor drinker so don bully me hahaha.. vomit like siao.. then awhile ltr okay liao but now andy turn he drunk liao ah dam noisy sia xDD keep asking us in the cab who he say bye bye to when going home and he gt give money or nt hahaha.. cannot tahan him xDD

tht bascially all for ytd =D

During celebrating mother's day =D

dam it 2 of my laptop key spoil ! fucking shit.. kinda lazy to type for tis few days,anw can't wait for tmr drinnking session..woooo

Some over due photo.. Edited by alvin

Do like look like the L4D Hunter? hahaha..

Today nnth much happen,whenn to sch same thing dota all the way..lunch bbreak ka jiao wei with fren lols. Tis few days kinnda bored,sch no event..

today went to sch first thing is PLAY DOTA ! haha... From 8 30 till 2 30 playing dota,teacher promised tmr he will give us 5hr of dotaing cos today his lesson end then need to lock the com lab so bo bian play half way shut down. After Dota lesson,it was P.E ! I forgotten to bring me atirer,Heng Mr Lam nv scold continue gyming during P.E. after p.e totally shag,then rain started to pour.. taken bus home,on the way fallen asleep... Anw today went to collect my winning soccer bet ! =DDD haha,so high when get those money but win abit onli. Better than nth right ?

Shag..

Today is the best.. everything goes well. smoking nv kana caught,teacher today nv teach much lesson. Almost the whole of the day was Dota-ing with classmate,haha kinda long time nv play le.. During lunch break when to collect my winning bets for soccer ! =DD went home then going to my cousin condo for celebrating early mother's days.. Eat eat eat haha so full,the bufflet is so dam nice lor. finally gt some photo to upload ! but i tink tmr cai upload bah lols,lazy...

Wat a Suay Day !

hmm feels better tis few days,no more crazy thinking.But thing didn't went back like past. Anw today was a super suay day,morning lesson when going back to classes mell kana caught for long hair.. lols tht old fucking teacher jealous of ppl hair long ah? hahaha.. During the 20min break ,my cousin and i decided to go toilet hve a smoking break.. smoke ah smoke ah so song,then the toilet door was forced open ! GUESS WAT ? It was the DM Fuck ! kana caught for smoking in sch compound area.. then he call us out and ask for our ic,he ask for my age i say 17 acutal is 18 cos 18 kana caught fine $200, 17 is $30 onli.. lols Then i started to tell old grandmother story say wat father will kill me mother will faint watever crap i can say. Then when to office hve a chit chat session then heng ah let us off.. but gt condition sia,within 3month cannot kana caught by him again if kana caught 2 fines..

It's over! everything everything... !

when i fallen asleep i kept dreaming of u and i spending the time tgt happily but when it came to the end,my tear roll out of my eye. when i came awake from my dream,i hope tht was just a dream and it's nt truth ! NO it's, i have to accpt the fact tht i had lost her forever,nt even being a fren anymore.. y do the ending hve to be always the same.. y y y? i spend almost all my time for u just to make u happy.. i don mind getting scolded by my parent for coming home late or even being locked outside my home. I DON MIND ! DO U KNW THT? watever i do for u is real and truth, it's nt a fake love,i'm nt playing.. Do u knw whenever i saw u or go out with u i felt so comfortable,so happy it's like heaven.. even when i'm tired i still stay up late to accompany u ,chat with u. i don mind going to sch late or sleepy.. everytime see u playing and teasing other guy it made me feel jealous.. y nt i'm the person u making fun or teasing at? Wat i need was ur attendition,ur care,ur concern,ur love and nth else.. I even specially buy a exp cake from my work place just for u which i didn't even want to spend it for myself.. going down to ur void deck seeing u enjoying the cake happily is wat i want.. i don mind spending all my time with u.. I donnoe wat now really don.. Y do the ending hve to be like tis? Everytime i recall wat u say to me,my tear started to roll down.. I donnoe wat shld i do now.. i don want to forget u. The pain and suffering is killing me, everytime it came i will go smoke till i get dizzy enough to stop my pain and foolish thinking. Smoking is nt wat i want ! Maybe pain could kill pain,i decided to put tattoo to make my painfulness to stop.

My Life

Tis few days i donnoe wat i have been tinking of. Love really hurts alot,when someone whom u love reject u or hve some reason which could not be tgt with u. I'm a person who get jealous easily when someone whom u love is treating other ppl or ur fren so gd and so close. When the person whom u loved gt entertained by ur fren and was like laughing happily but when u try to entertain it was like she just smile.. i donnoe wat crazy thinking i have,i don want to be like tis.I feel so hurt. every night my tear will roll down my eye when i tink of ur loved one being so close with ur fren but nt u and making fun pushing him around but not me. it maybe childish for other ppl but tht wat i like i want her attention and love.. Sometime i feel like dieing just like tht,being hit by car is wat i tink of for dieing. Sometime i would open my window and look down.. If i die my fren and love one would be sad and crying for me,but slowly the imagine of me would just disappear from their mind..Slowly i would be an air partical to all of them. But for me even if i die i will always rmb of my fren,my family and loved one,will look over them and not letting them get any harm. Even if sacrificing myself for them i don mind,i will do for them no matter wat to get their happiness back.. Slowly somedays my fren, i will nt be on this world anymore. Being hurt by love once - it's okay,twice - still can forget , thrice - starting to be afriad , fouth -having fear of falling in love again.. For guy hurting girls heart is nth and ppl don care,i pity those girl who put so much effort and true love in thier loved one. LOVE IS COMPLICATED... Y DO LOVE HVE TO BE SO CRUEL ?


the result btw us had turn so bad tht,she wants me to forget her. i told her we still can continue be fren. repiled u shld nt had knw me,find other fren bah gd night sweet dream.. and silent

The Days Of My Lifez..

today wake up at 6.30am ! fucking tired. reach sch around 8,then go for the it lesson. When the teacher talk he can make u fall asleep. After the 12pm lunch break, my cousin and I ran lesson by telling teacher tht we need to attend the last day of my fren's ah ma song ka. hahaa,u knw wat the teacher reply? "Okay,i need u to photocopy the death cert and give me." LOL ,photoCOPY the death cert ?!?! But i don care,i will come up with some excuses again. Reach home eat & sleep,tis few day is fucking slag.