It's over! everything everything... !

when i fallen asleep i kept dreaming of u and i spending the time tgt happily but when it came to the end,my tear roll out of my eye. when i came awake from my dream,i hope tht was just a dream and it's nt truth ! NO it's, i have to accpt the fact tht i had lost her forever,nt even being a fren anymore.. y do the ending hve to be always the same.. y y y? i spend almost all my time for u just to make u happy.. i don mind getting scolded by my parent for coming home late or even being locked outside my home. I DON MIND ! DO U KNW THT? watever i do for u is real and truth, it's nt a fake love,i'm nt playing.. Do u knw whenever i saw u or go out with u i felt so comfortable,so happy it's like heaven.. even when i'm tired i still stay up late to accompany u ,chat with u. i don mind going to sch late or sleepy.. everytime see u playing and teasing other guy it made me feel jealous.. y nt i'm the person u making fun or teasing at? Wat i need was ur attendition,ur care,ur concern,ur love and nth else.. I even specially buy a exp cake from my work place just for u which i didn't even want to spend it for myself.. going down to ur void deck seeing u enjoying the cake happily is wat i want.. i don mind spending all my time with u.. I donnoe wat now really don.. Y do the ending hve to be like tis? Everytime i recall wat u say to me,my tear started to roll down.. I donnoe wat shld i do now.. i don want to forget u. The pain and suffering is killing me, everytime it came i will go smoke till i get dizzy enough to stop my pain and foolish thinking. Smoking is nt wat i want ! Maybe pain could kill pain,i decided to put tattoo to make my painfulness to stop.

My Life

Tis few days i donnoe wat i have been tinking of. Love really hurts alot,when someone whom u love reject u or hve some reason which could not be tgt with u. I'm a person who get jealous easily when someone whom u love is treating other ppl or ur fren so gd and so close. When the person whom u loved gt entertained by ur fren and was like laughing happily but when u try to entertain it was like she just smile.. i donnoe wat crazy thinking i have,i don want to be like tis.I feel so hurt. every night my tear will roll down my eye when i tink of ur loved one being so close with ur fren but nt u and making fun pushing him around but not me. it maybe childish for other ppl but tht wat i like i want her attention and love.. Sometime i feel like dieing just like tht,being hit by car is wat i tink of for dieing. Sometime i would open my window and look down.. If i die my fren and love one would be sad and crying for me,but slowly the imagine of me would just disappear from their mind..Slowly i would be an air partical to all of them. But for me even if i die i will always rmb of my fren,my family and loved one,will look over them and not letting them get any harm. Even if sacrificing myself for them i don mind,i will do for them no matter wat to get their happiness back.. Slowly somedays my fren, i will nt be on this world anymore. Being hurt by love once - it's okay,twice - still can forget , thrice - starting to be afriad , fouth -having fear of falling in love again.. For guy hurting girls heart is nth and ppl don care,i pity those girl who put so much effort and true love in thier loved one. LOVE IS COMPLICATED... Y DO LOVE HVE TO BE SO CRUEL ?


the result btw us had turn so bad tht,she wants me to forget her. i told her we still can continue be fren. repiled u shld nt had knw me,find other fren bah gd night sweet dream.. and silent

The Days Of My Lifez..

today wake up at 6.30am ! fucking tired. reach sch around 8,then go for the it lesson. When the teacher talk he can make u fall asleep. After the 12pm lunch break, my cousin and I ran lesson by telling teacher tht we need to attend the last day of my fren's ah ma song ka. hahaa,u knw wat the teacher reply? "Okay,i need u to photocopy the death cert and give me." LOL ,photoCOPY the death cert ?!?! But i don care,i will come up with some excuses again. Reach home eat & sleep,tis few day is fucking slag.