It's over! everything everything... !

when i fallen asleep i kept dreaming of u and i spending the time tgt happily but when it came to the end,my tear roll out of my eye. when i came awake from my dream,i hope tht was just a dream and it's nt truth ! NO it's, i have to accpt the fact tht i had lost her forever,nt even being a fren anymore.. y do the ending hve to be always the same.. y y y? i spend almost all my time for u just to make u happy.. i don mind getting scolded by my parent for coming home late or even being locked outside my home. I DON MIND ! DO U KNW THT? watever i do for u is real and truth, it's nt a fake love,i'm nt playing.. Do u knw whenever i saw u or go out with u i felt so comfortable,so happy it's like heaven.. even when i'm tired i still stay up late to accompany u ,chat with u. i don mind going to sch late or sleepy.. everytime see u playing and teasing other guy it made me feel jealous.. y nt i'm the person u making fun or teasing at? Wat i need was ur attendition,ur care,ur concern,ur love and nth else.. I even specially buy a exp cake from my work place just for u which i didn't even want to spend it for myself.. going down to ur void deck seeing u enjoying the cake happily is wat i want.. i don mind spending all my time with u.. I donnoe wat now really don.. Y do the ending hve to be like tis? Everytime i recall wat u say to me,my tear started to roll down.. I donnoe wat shld i do now.. i don want to forget u. The pain and suffering is killing me, everytime it came i will go smoke till i get dizzy enough to stop my pain and foolish thinking. Smoking is nt wat i want ! Maybe pain could kill pain,i decided to put tattoo to make my painfulness to stop.